Wednesday, April 29, 2015

[in progress]

Elijah
The high today was sixty-three degrees. It wasn't frigid anymore, but it wasn't particularly warm either. There was a reason for all of this, a calculated risk and a vert deliberate thought process. The air was crisp but not cold. Not frigid, not clinging, not desperate winter that hung on his skin and stuck in his lungs and insisted, insisted you're dying, you're dying, this is the end like it always did. He picked today for a reason, he picked today because there were intentions that needed to be made clear.

He seemed dead set on trying to give himself the flu, though, what with the consistent water logging and drying out.

Elijah had called Ian, explained that he wanted to head out, enjoy nature, see new places because Colorado was full of nature and full of beautiful places and he wanted to see the stars int he evening spiral upwards in some perfect line and feel the air go electric and taste the slow and dawning pieces of spring trying to peek through the stubborn cold. He used less words, though. He'd said something akin to Hey, do you want to go to Forsythe Canyon with me? There's a waterfall.

That was the point of this, you see. The waterfall was the entire point, and there he was in the middle of the afternoon, ready for a small jaunt into the wilderness, about a two and a half  mile hike before they actually would get to the destination. He'd been upfront about the distance, almost expecting Ian to turn him down given that the drive to the canyon was over an hour. He'd planned this, prepared for what could be an all-day affair, or at least take up all the sunlit hours that they could find.

So, this is where we open, with a young man in a parking lot, carrying little more than a backpack and determination.

Ian
Ian didn't turn Elijah down. In fact, he agreed with very little deliberation. The timing happened to coincide with his vacation, and Ian seldom passed up an opportunity to go hiking in the Colorado landscape. Especially these days.

He showed up to the parking lot on time, after having driven out from the city. His car ticked gently as it settled from use, chirping when he got out and locked the doors. He didn't carry a pack, as Elijah did. They didn't really need two, though he would probably offer to take it from him later. For now, he walked up with a water bottle and a couple of high-end protein bars (the kind without a huge list of dubious-sounding ingredients) and slipped them into Elijah's pack. It was warm enough that he could dress fairly lightly, so he had on a pair of 3/4 length hiking pants - made from some slippery dark grey material and featuring a couple of cargo pockets - and a t-shirt layered beneath a thin jacket of the same make and color as his pants.

"Hey." His greeting was relaxed, but he seemed quiet (as he had at the park a few nights earlier.) "Ready to go?"

Assuming Elijah was, Ian started off toward the trail at a brisk stride, tilting his eyes up toward the sky and the rolling peaks of the Colorado wilderness.

Elijah
It was easier to work here. That much was starting to become clear to Elijah. He didn't have to push through to see what was going on in the other reflections of the world, but actually touching it- actually interacting with the denizens of the planes (knocking gently, asking politely, may I or come here or any number of things. He didn't speak their language, something he was willing and ready to remedy) it was much easier in a place that wasn't stifling. He was starting to learn, starting to realize that there was a difference between the cities and nature, starting to realize that, in some lights, this was how it was meant to be. That this was the world before we set limits, insisted upon our own dominion and screamed no, you can't and built walls and barriers and separateness.

There was no give and take in a city, even a city like Denver. It didn't just apply to the spirit world either.

When Ian arrived he got a smile, something generally pleased and ready to actually venture out into the wilderness, even if Elijah's view of the wilderness was still limited to an unkempt city park (such a city boy, this one, something he intended on remedying). Ian was good company in situations like this, and there didn't seem to be the pressure to talk, the need to talk. He was wearing shorts, something that came to his knees and a fleece pullover. Watch in his pocket, still only accurate twice a day (except for when Elijah was insistent that it keep time to the second, which it would. It was a symbol, a tool, and he made sure his tools were well kept).

Ready to go?
"Yeah," he replied, that tiny bit of anticipation in his voice, that  readiness to be out in the thick of things, to challenge his perceptions, to go trapped in every movement. He was different now, they both were. Elijah was pushing, racing, reaching for more than just the unrest. His chaos tested boundaries now, pushed against them and insisted we are more than this.

The train was easy enough, which was good for Elijah because he wasn't the experienced survivalist that Ian was (again, his survival skills were limited to being able to navigate concrete and re-bar forests.) He continued on, keeping up with the brisk pace if only because he needed to move. The canyon was blooming, blossoming into greens and buds and careful bits of springtime, life, creeping into the area. The area is mostly evergreen- fir and spruce and smelling like the idea of mountains. It's rocky, but not unwieldy. The trail itself doesn't seem difficult to follow (yet.)

Half a mile in, Elijah said something- "okay, so, basically the highlight of this place is the waterfall and the reservoir."

He pauses, inhales, focuses his attention, "I can't fucking stand water, and that's bullshit because I can objectively say this place is beautiful and the overarching majesty and that stuff-" he's hurting for words, that much is obvious. He's reaching, but he feels he owes Ian an explanation, as though he owed anyone an explanation "-so I've recently come to the conclusion that being scared that I'm going to drown in anything deeper than a bathtub is bullshit, so... uh... yeah."

Ian
[Life 3, boosting perception, diff 6 -1 (primal resonance) -1 (going slow)]

Dice: 3 d10 TN4 (4, 8, 10) ( success x 4 ) [WP]

Ian
[+2 Perception for 24 hours]

Ian
There was something both animal and meditative in the way that Ian walked the trail. The impossible ease and agility of his steps, long and relaxed, punctuated by occasional bursts of athleticism. The two of them fell into a companionable silence as they hiked, though Ian's attention was anything but withdrawn. His attention was open and alert, taking in the sights and sounds and smells of the landscape. At some point, perhaps, Elijah might notice him drag his thumb over a sharp snag of stone. The action opened a small wound, and Ian put it to his mouth as he walked, closing his eyes as he tasted the familiar copper-salt tang of his own blood.

Gradually, the details of the landscape became sharper, clearer. Like watching a film shift from muted tones to vibrant color. Ian stopped for a moment to look around, lips parted softly as he breathed. Just... taking everything in.

It was like a kind of prayer, for him (though Ian would never have used that word.)

But he didn't say anything about what he was doing. Maybe Elijah could guess. Maybe he was busy focusing on his own journey. Regardless, they hiked. Over stones and leaves and blanketing pine needles. Trees shifted in the wind, the tips of their branches waving softly back and forth. Animals scuttled nearby. A woodpecker tapped loudly on a rotting trunk, the sound a staccato echo.

Half a mile in, Elijah finally spoke. Ian glanced at him for a long moment. He could smell the pheromones in Elijah's sweat. The fragrance of his shampoo. The complex fibers that made up his hiking pack.

"It isn't bullshit. Sometimes things happen to us that leave marks. Change the way our instincts function. But it's good you're trying to deal with it. Water is fucking amazing, and I promise I won't let you drown."

He gave a slow smile, at that.

Elijah
His senses aren't like that. Sometimes, it's too much, but it doesn't parallel the barest limits of human perception. The world is beautiful like this. More color, more sound, more everything. There are smells, there are smells everywhere. And whoever said that water didn't have a smell was full of bullshit because there was the scent of something running, flowing over rocks, running smooth what once was rough.

He catches that small moment, the drag of his finger over a jagged rock. Can't quite guess what he's doing, but has an inkling. They're silent, and for his part, Elijah just lets everything be. Lets his senses be nowhere so he can be everywhere. There are things he notices when he isn't trying to notice anything. The world is loud, but his world has always been loud. Always been full of sounds and sensations and, for his part, Elijah liked nature because it was a different kind of noisy.

No insistence that he help, no incessant whispers of jump, do it, jump, it's so lonely here, no wailing and keening, no dawning awareness of how the dead stay locked in place by their passions. No, nature was quiet that way. It was the kind of noisy that Elijah liked, the kind that was the appropriate silent.

He smells clean. Or at least his clothes smell clean. He showered this morning, is tinged by the wind and the road. He smells a little like fabric softener and the remnants of Jenn's body wash. He'd spent the night at the apartment, likely slept in her bed though instead of his. He did it a lot, woke up curled around the smaller woman and took in her scent and reveled in the fact that he didn't wake up to her looking concerned, that she didn't look at him with relief and insist you wouldn't wake up. A lot has changed over the course of a year, and he was better for it.

There was a hurdle, though. And he could go somewhere beautiful to get past it. Ian promises he won't let him drown, and Elijah smiles. At the edges, but genuine. "I know you're good for it," the acceptance that Ian was good for his word.

"Between drowning and Katrina it's always been a thing and I just figured that I was sick of it. I like pictures of water, so I figure maybe the actuality of water might not suck if the company is decent."

Ian
"Mm, maybe not." Ian's smile lingered like a promise, soft and tipped at the edges. He seemed different today. More like the person that Elijah had seen on that mountain, but also... touched with a bit more color. He pulled his water bottle free from Elijah's pack and took a deep drink. When he replaced it, he gave the pack a light tug, as though to slightly unbalance Elijah, then jogged ahead up the trail.

They were getting closer to the water. The scent of it was strong in the air, as was the echo of the distant falls. The closer they got, the more the pressure changed (as warm air met cool.) It made the hair rise briefly on Ian's arms.

"How've you been lately, by the way?"

Elijah
[There is totally not dread here. WP roll]

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (3, 3, 8, 9, 9) ( success x 3 )

Elijah
He was different today. He seemed to be himself, just a different facet. Seeing Ian in nature was a pleasure, something that Elijah hadn't considered an indulgence. He knew what to do in dance clubs and on phone calls but here, there was something more genuine. Something that seemed more open. One only gets to see pieces of Ian at a time, and this one? Well, it was something that Elijah was steadily starting to find more excuses to see.

They were getting close to the water, to the falls that he had been both anxious and excited to be near. The air was going cool and his heart was beating loud and his breathing was forced low and deep and there was that moment that he ponders if he could turn around, if hge should call it. But Ian pulled on his pack a little, enough to make him lose a little bit of balance. Not much, not enough to send him toppling, but enough to give him a head start.

Elijah laughed, something unrestrained (because was he ever restrained?) and pleased. He trots down the path, a bit more sure-footed than he had been in the past. Actually capable of keeping up, even if he wasn't as agile as Ian he had the wherewithal to persevere.

How has he been?

"Decent. Jenn and I had a huge talk about the nature of the universe and I may have shown her the umbra, which she was strangely receptive to after she stopped thinking I got her really high without her knowledge," he doesn't seem as winded as he would be, though he does try to push himself forward, to maybe get to reservoir and the waterfall before Ian would. He knew better than to try, but what is the fun in just rolling over and letting things pass him by?

"I tried to talk to Ari about stuff but we got distracted- totally not my fault. But she was pretty receptive so maybe she won't be so... y'know... bitey in an unpleasant way."

Ian
"Distracted, huh," Ian repeated the word with a dry inflection, inviting without pressing. His thoughts lingered for a moment on Jenn. On the way Elijah described her seemingly easy acceptance of something beyond what she'd always known to be real. His pace slowed to a walk, letting his energy settle. "You're lucky, I think. With Jenn. Not many people would be willing to see that."

It was something he'd never attempted, himself. Sharing that piece of his life with someone who wasn't already Awake.

Elijah
"WE hooked up, I asked if she was okay with this and she was sure and, uh, yeah. That is a quick recipe to apparently hit Arionna's I'm going to show you how incredibly sure I am about this, how dare you question my motives buttons. I was not expecting that."

He clarified, yes, but there was the question of Jenn and it does make ELijah slow, choose his words a little more carefully, "we hit this breaking point. I'd been really shady with her, she thought Kalen was an abusive boyfriend because every time shit would go down I would disappear, show back up withdrawn, and wouldn't talk to her about it." Elijah slowed back to walking, though some part of him was excited. Eagerly awaiting seeing this waterfall he'd been hoping for.

"It was really scary. I mean, I had a push to do it, it was a big push, but... like... I needed to do it. I was talking to- well, I guess it's just another facet of myself, your avatar? I am on the fence if it's something inside of you or outside or both or neither-" he could go on like this for a day if he would let himself, but he shook his head quickly, "anyway, I was telling myself that I couldn't do that and... it wasn't a matter of not being capable or not being allowed, it was having the drive to take that risk. Whether I decided to tell her or not to tell her, I had to own that it was my choice and not one outside of me, so... I made the call and she... it's all really new to her. I mean, I understand that, she's got a lot of questions, and I wish I could just... like... answer them, but I don't have those answers and it's great because..."

He falters, it's just for a second.

"I hated lying to Jenn, and now I don't have to. With all the bullshit we've been through, I would have hated that this is the reason she would walk away."

Because it's there, in his voice, that he expected Jenn to walk away. That, on a certain degree, he wanted Jenn to walk away. Just like he'd wanted Kalen to walk away. To wash their hands and say it was too much and just leave him to his poor decisions and lack of expectations.

"I didn't tell her about you, so if you want to let Jenn in on the big magical bag, that's totally your call. She knows, so she's riding my ass now, it's kinda nice."

Ian
He was quiet while Elijah spoke, letting him share what he wanted to divulge. The two of them drew closer as they walked, but Ian didn't attempt to bridge the gap with physical contact. He glanced at Elijah once or twice, taking in the set of his features, the tension in his posture, before returning his attention to the trail. He could hear the waterfall rushing in the distance.

"I'll think about it," he offered, in response to Elijah's reassurance that this secret was still his to give away, if he wished. "You seem happier since you've told her. I'm glad you did. Whatever anyone else thinks.

"And that doesn't surprise me. About Arionna. I'd be careful with her though. She's... volatile."

Elijah
"I am happier," he qualifies.

They're getting closer, and his stomach is tense. There's a shift in body chemistry. There's a shift that insists that his body might make a demand of him soon enough to run, to stop, to not go any closer because darling stupid boy this is dangerous! Ignorant child, this is the end, didn't you remember? Didn't you hear? Everything screaming and tearing apart, didn't you remember?

It's different, he reminds himself. Doesn't make contact, doesn't reach out for comfort because he. would. do. this. If he was going to face things down, there was a degree of self-soothing that he was going to have to figure out. There's finality in his posture, determination, a push that he be more than what he is.

Things have changed about Elijah, and he is no longer content with formless chaos. There has to be more, and that tempest tests the edges and dares to spill over, take more than it is offered because this can't be all there is, this can't be the end. He doesn't want it to be, and he's starting to remember how much his will matters.

And he wouldn't be cowed by nature, he would exist with it.

He doesn't respond yet, just nods. "Yeah," after a moment, "this just feels like a bad decision. I think she has a boundary issue."

He continues forward, and over the crest of a hill, down a rocky path, something uneasy and not quite worn as the rest of it. There it was- clear blue water. The water runs down from some source not quite in view but it spills down rocks, stains the beaten area with moss and, somewhere behind that beating crest there was an alcove behind it.

The water is blue and clear, save for where it is dark and not. Save for the places where it is deep, where when one swims they could feel it grow cold and hint at the vast depths below.

Water is not to be trifled with, but water is life. Is majesty. Is not an ally but not an enemy, as much of nature is. (Maybe Ari had some points after all. Things that get lost in her vitriol.)

Tag in the rain

Ian
Washington Park was alive with the deep, vibrant green of late spring. Today the effect of it was somewhat incongruous with the weather, as winter's icy breath gave one last exhale - a reminder of nature's unpredictability. At 41 degrees, the air was cold enough to warrant a coat. The breeze that gusted over the landscape had a sharp bite to it. Most of the afternoon visitors cleared out when the rain started, but the precipitation never exceeded more than a light drizzle. Now it was more of a mist than anything - the kind that beaded up and left little pin-drops of water on your skin and clothes.

Ian rarely let things like cold or rain deter him from his daily routine. Recently, even less so. He'd been running, but now he was pacing quietly through the grass, hands in the pockets of his dark windbreaker as his breath plumed little clouds in the mist. His hair was wet. So were his shoes. The wetness made the cold more noticeable, but his core temperature was still up from his run. Looking out over the sleepy landscape, Ian pondered the way the deep green of the grass contrasted against the grey and darkening sky. Someone else might have called it dreary, but for him there was something meditative about it.

Elijah
[Per+alert, do I hear people?]

Dice: 7 d10 TN6 (4, 5, 6, 6, 7, 7, 8, 10) ( success x 6 ) Re-rolls: 1

Elijah
(you know, it would help if I rolled the right number of dice... My bad! Per+alert (not aware)]

Dice: 6 d10 TN6 (1, 4, 5, 5, 6, 7) ( success x 2 )

Elijah
Elijah Poirot lived a very loud life.

When he woke up, there was a warning. When he woke up and when he Woke Up he had an imperative imparted to him. A command, a reminder-live, live- for tomorrow you die and all begins anew. He heard the wisdom between the walls, of something that was restrained because there was something between Elijah and a truer part of himself. It was telling that, for a long time, he had no desire to see what lived behind that wall. Any wall. There was a memory, a dream, something that left the smell of sulfur in his nose and the feeling of something ancient and terrible in his mind. There was a man like an ocean and a woman who felt like the end of all things (a fact Elijah learned to take as comfort- Elijah missed Eleanor.) There had been a warning he knew in his heart- there were consequences for selling your soul. There were consequences for asking for eternity.

We digress.

Elijah lived a life that was loud, a warning from his avatar (a very different being living behind the walls and barriers and bullshit that Elijah built) to the dead. To talking. To the constant sound and hum of something that was just beyond his reach. Well, maybe not beyond his reach anymore. He's learned that it's hard to push past those walls, to touch the seemingly intangible spaces between the worlds. He tried it anyway, but did not meddle. He learned that there were consequences, and consequences that should not be ignored. But there were the dead. They were always around, sometimes distraught. Sometimes wailing, sometimes battling their inner demons for control and he heard all of it. He heard every blessed moment of it, whether his ears were meant to hear them or not. There was a reason people drank to forget; there are things mortals aren't meant to here.

And still, he stayed alert, awake, focused for now to pay attention to the physical instead of the land between. He was moving to find that silence, that nice moment where the world shuts down and he's nothing but a body because there is no difference between him and the rest of the world. He doesn't run often, but Jenn had harped on him about omniscience and perfection. Perfect mind was nothing without paying attention to your body, and vice versa. We are not parts, but a whole. So there he was, hands in a beat up leather jacket and wearing a pair of hiking boots that were intended to keep the water out. Jeans and a tee shirt, something white and V necked that started to get a little wet in the front, like he was going to be a last place finisher in a wet t-shirt contest if he wasn't careful.

He did not smell sulfur in his nose, did not pick up unmistakable, ageless evil. Just wet grass and cold air and a slow, pounding pulse . His attention went to the distance, to nearby water and the feeling that maybe... maybe it was time to be less afraid. Maybe it was time to push past something, to move, to transcend. To be more because he could be more.

For now, though, the young man was dressed comfortably and seemed to have no problem reveling in cold and searching for silence, only to hear the rhythmic pounding of someone's feet on a run. The water on a bench. [the quiet keening of something long dead by the lake, weeping into hands, breath useless but shuddering 'oh, Richard'. The taunting of something terrible. He doesn't approach the lake for a reason.]

He turned, looking for the sound the running, the source. He waits, grin on his face like he was the only spectator of a one man marathon.

Ian
[Awareness]

Dice: 6 d10 TN6 (1, 4, 5, 6, 7, 9) ( success x 3 )

Ian
A figure moved nearby. Ian surveyed the lake in the near distance, but did not make any motion to approach. Instead his eyes fixed on Elijah's profile. He watched him move for a time, the way that people sometimes watched animals (or animals sometimes watched people,) finding a simple fascination in the rhythm of his gait and the slope of his posture.

He knew who it was. Even at a distance, with details obscured by mist and low light. He felt Elijah in the air. Recognized him by the way he moved. Almost imagined for a moment that he could smell him, but that was probably a sense memory.

Gradually he closed the distance between them, moving at a relaxed gait. His steps were fluid and quiet, muffled against the wet grass. When he neared Elijah, he stopped and tilted his head, a subtle expression of familiarity showing on his features. He didn't speak just yet. Maybe he'd forgotten for a moment that he was supposed to.

Elijah
[oh, who is this? Per+aware]

Dice: 7 d10 TN6 (1, 3, 4, 5, 6, 8, 10) ( success x 3 )

Ian
Elijah knew Ian. Had felt the presence of his resonance many times now. But tonight there was something new there - deeper, stronger, more visceral. It mingled with his cunning elegance and that ever-present echo of the feline predator that lurked beneath his skin. He didn't so much feel changed as more... himself, as though inhabiting his nature more fully. He felt altogether more Primal now.

Arionna de la Babin
[per+aware -jesus you two]

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (1, 4, 5, 7, 8) ( success x 2 )

Elijah
[WP: because we have impulse control]

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (1, 2, 4, 7, 8) ( success x 2 )

Arionna de la Babin
[dex+stealth-I can totally not be seen or something]

Dice: 3 d10 TN6 (1, 4, 9) ( success x 1 )

Ian
[Per+Alertness oh-ho, is someone sneaking? ( -2 diff from acute senses)]

Dice: 6 d10 TN4 (1, 1, 2, 3, 4, 4) ( success x 2 )

Arionna de la Babin
The gods are warring.

This is a simple truth that people like Arionna understand. The gods are warring, and we know this to be true because the cycles are shifting. Where once the gods of the night fought bravely, stealing more of mortal time for themselves, now they are growing tired and those of the light are pushing them back. It's a war that will go on until the end of time, as neither can live without the other.

It is during this time that those of the night feel most vulnerable. The cold has shifted away from them, the nights grow shorter, and their strength...their strength becomes difficult to maintain. It's hard to wander among people during the time one is most vulnerable; you feel...like prey. Thus it is that when these times come, those of the eve shall step forward and take what little night they have available, and use it shamelessly. They will not yield; they will endure.

She ought to be at home, certainly. But this is her time, and she will not give it up. Her time. It is what she has for herself, if only for a moment. While it is not entirely safe for someone such as her to be wandering the dark park, she does it anyway, utilizing what scorn she may have as a shield against the suspicious.

She can feel them at the edges of her own wind; at the edges of winter and sorrow. Elijah. Ian. Though there is a difference amongst them, one she does not know, and she can only wonder if there is someone new. Wonderful. It's all she needs. Another groupie. Or perhaps she is mistaken. Thus enters curiosity.

Arionna follows the sensation, her footsteps light and careful. She is no master of the shadows or silence, but she has learned something of her time of running and hiding. From the path she moves towards these feelings, her boots sinking into the earth softly with each step.

Alexander
[Int+Med?]

Dice: 3 d10 TN6 (3, 4, 7) ( success x 1 )

Elijah
There was movement.

There was a lake in the distance, crying on the other side, a wailing, keening something but he wasn't listening to that. He was listening to footsteps, feeling something altogether familiar but more. So much more than what he was familiar with. It felt right. It opened up questions and there he was, wet with the rain and feeling like... like...

His attention turned, not quite prey but certainly not a predator and awed by the grace of those who were with him. There was a feeling about Ian, something Elijah always expected but what came to life. His eyes are alight, green and amber and he bridges the gap.

Green and amber and focused and there was a second when he was there, steps away, there- but a breath away. His hands come up, cupping cheeks, pulling in, coming closer and pressing his lips to Ian's like it was the only thing he could have ever thought of doing. Not an impulse, but an imperative- exactly what he inteded for it to be. Lips against his, heart beating loud and there is a reckless abandon in the movement. Something fevered and intent and warm- even if his fingertips are cold.

He doesn't say a word.

Alexander
There are others in the city who are regular visitors to the park, although their reasons for being there vary.  Some come for exercise.  Some come to be sociable.  Others come because they just fucking feel like it walking over the grass in heels.  Others come to wait.

Alexander, depending on the day, can slip into several of those categories.  He runs here, has played soccer and Frisbee here.  But today the reason is to wait, in the hope of meeting someone once again.  Someone met here twice before, so the hope is that there will be a third time here too.  And so he sits and he waits and he watches without really seeing.  The city moves along at its own pace around the park, and the park continues in its own patterns around him.  Alexander sits on a bench near the lake, lost within himself.  The pattern of the drizzle provided a base for meditation and, so far, there hasn’t been much reason for it to come to an end.  He sits, frozen apart from the slow rise and fall of his chest.  His clothes – jackets, combats, boots – are wet, but that little fact is either unnoticed or not really important.

And so it’s easy for him to miss the not-so-familiar resonances moving around nearby.  Just as much as it’s easy for his own to fade into the cold of the park.

Ian
The kiss probably shouldn't have surprised him, but it did - a little. Maybe because neither of them had ever kissed to say hello before. They hadn't really kissed all that often, actually. And then... usually as a prelude or an accompaniment to other kinds of physical intimacy. So Elijah kissed him, and he did not immediately react apart from the instinctive softening of his lips. But still, he gave no objection, and after a couple of heartbeats he let his eyes close and exhaled gently against Elijah's mouth - kissed him back a little more assertively, then pulled away with a little smile.

"Good time for a walk, hmm?"

It wasn't, but they were out here anyway. Ian's eyes shifted toward the nearby trees. The muted light in the sky was disappearing behind Denver's horizon, drawing on toward night. Toward darkness. Soon the park lights would switch on, but right now the trees were mostly in shadow. It would be easy to slip through them unnoticed, but Arionna's passage did not quite manage to escape Ian's attention. He caught her movement in his gaze, hovering there a moment before his focus shifted to the nearby lakeshore. The bench (Alexander.) And back to Elijah again.

Arionna de la Babin
Another like her. The end state of her process. She feels him too now. Three that she knows. Three that she is familiar with. Thankfully, these are not three that she greatly dislikes.

She walks through the trees, curling her dark arms into her chest momentarily when a bit of cold seeps through her sweater. Despite how it feels, she misses it already; misses the deep cold and the dead trees. She sees them, their moment of affection, and she knows all too well that what she feels is not the way a person ought to. It's not Elijah or Ian's fault, and perhaps for once she understands that. Still...

Arionna watches them for a moment, pressing her palm against a tree as if it will provide some sort of support. Then she steps away from it slowly, and moves from the trunk. She tries to be quiet. Tries to go unnoticed, because there is another. One she is likely to approach, and to feel comfortable with.

Elijah
[Do I notice Ari now? Per+alert]

Dice: 6 d10 TN6 (4, 4, 6, 6, 8, 9) ( success x 4 )

Elijah
There's that little smile, and Elijah can't get the grin off his face. Ever so pleased, like that was exactly what he wanted to do, grinning like he had made some great discovery (grinning like he stared down a tiger and lived to tell the tale). There is a moment, a moment where that grin is both pleased and a little cautious- aware that there is an edge he can ride and delighting in the fact that there is something new.

Good time for a walk?
"No kidding, right?" he said, hands go into his pockets (fiddle with the pocket watch on his left) "would you think me too Beyonce if I called you fierce? Because you feel fierce... like base instinct."

It went without saying, indicated in tone and the look in his eyes that he very heartily approved. He liked it, to say the least.

His attentions do move, though, since his senses are awake and alert and the cold keeps him sharp. Sees a man on the bench- Alexander, maybe? And someone by the trees- Elijah smiles, takes a hand out of his pocket and gives a little wave. All good natured, unaware that his actions may be pushing on a bruise (or perhaps he does know, perhaps he is callous, but it's hard to imagine.)


Alexander
[Per+Aware?]

Dice: 4 d10 TN6 (2, 2, 5, 6) ( success x 1 )

Alexander
Frozen, but not quite.  Moisture had been building up all over Alexander and, finally, was the cause for him to lose that long moment of focus.  A drop of cold water ran from the hairline at the back of his head and down his spine, making him shiver.  And that small recognition of his body led to more.  He’d been there for a while, as the temperature had dropped.  His muscles had stiffened up, joints complaining at moving again.  A crick in his neck needed release.  So Alexander stands, shrugging his shoulders up and rolling the knots that had formed between his shoulder blades out.

He realises that, once again, the creature that he still hoped to encounter – still hoped would take him up on his request to travel the Umbra – hadn’t appeared.  There isn’t so much disappointment as… patience?  It will happen when it happens.  Realisation also follows that he’s not alone in this part of the park.  Two familiar-but-different resonances linger with each other nearby, a third – unchanged from the last time he’d encountered it at the station – in the tree line.  Running his hands over his hair to dislodge the remaining moisture, he turns to look at the closest two.  They could be Elijah and Ian, they could be someone else.  It does seem to be the season for change though, in more than just the weather.

Ian
On a different day, Ian probably would have made a joke of that. Today he just smirked and gave a small roll of his eyes, glancing briefly sideways. "It's... been an eventful month."

And yet he seemed uninclined to elaborate. Maybe it wasn't necessary.

"Should we say hello, or leave them alone?" Ian indicated Arionna and Alexander with a tilt of his head. The cold was beginning to creep into his bones. His hands (and his lips where Elijah had kissed him) felt chilled to the touch, though there was yet color in his skin. He shifted on his feet to keep his blood moving, walking in a lazy circle around Elijah.

Arionna de la Babin
Elijah waved.

Knowing him,she hasn't a clue. He can be dense sometimes, and other timse he's far too empathic. If she could liken him to a creature she knows well, it would certainly be a dog; loyal, friendly (far too much so), and yet sometimes doesn't get it. But...people could say similar things about her (minus the friendly).

But he waved, and despite that feeling that is forming down in the pit of her stomach, she pauses. Sometimes she even wonders if he realizes exactly how willing she is to push against her own nature sometimes when he's around.

You're growing too attached Ari. You're becoming dependent. 

And now she is torn. Torn between the two that cling to each other's space, and the other who, like Elijah, pushed a little further and gave her something to go on...some bit of advice.

Does she move or doesn't she? For now she remains...still.

Elijah
"Let's be sociable," he decides, concludes with a bright and chipper smile (one that does not relay that he is cold and that his hands are cold and that he might end up with a cold in the morning, but that is a problem for Tomorrow Elijah. Today Elijah feels just fine and is happy to roll around in the grass and-

He pauses, takes a second and takes a few steps towards Arionna.

"Hey," he starts, friendly enough, "I'm thinking about playing hide and seek. Wanna play? Jenn's been riding my ass about needing to do more physical things with people that don't involve doing things with other people."

And then he turns, with no regard for personal space or the fact that Alexander might have something he wants to do aside from listen to his cabal mate's apprentice.

"Hey Alex-" a hitch, since he realizes something "-ander, wanna play hide and seek?"

HE looks towards Ian, brows raised, glance inviting, words lacking but the question quite clear. HIs word view is nothing but words and symbols, and he knows when one does not need words at all.

Alexander
[Per+Alert - I see you, Ari?]

Dice: 6 d10 TN6 (1, 4, 5, 6, 8, 10) ( success x 3 )

Alexander
The closest two certainly appear to be the people he was expecting them to be, but it’s Elijah’s shout across the grass that makes him smile.  Definitely Elijah.  He leans back, curving his spine and getting one last crack out, before turning back to a patch of grass near the lake that looks like any other.  He says, to the air, “another time, then,” before turning to Ian and Elijah.

Then he turns towards the pair and starts walking, waiting until he’s a little closer before he calls back.  “I can’t remember the last time I played, but I’m game.”  Then, closer still when he doesn’t need to shout anymore, “But won’t it be too easy if we can just feel where each other is?  Although you both don’t feel quite the same as you used to.  Interesting times.”

He nods up towards the trees and the figure standing partially obscured by one trunk.  “Speaking of interesting times, have you guys met Arionna, yet?”

Ian
"And what things would those be, exactly?" Ian couldn't quite resist the bait, dry amusement evident in his tone. The question didn't necessarily require a response. But he followed along behind Elijah as they approached the others, his gait long and fluid. Elijah's suggestion (that they play hide and seek, of all things) didn't get an immediate response, but when he repeated it to Alexander, Ian's breath gave an exhale of soft laughter.

"You're serious, aren't you?"

It seemed like the kind of suggestion that Ian was likely to reject on principle, but he didn't (yet.) Instead he turned to Alexander with a thoughtful expression. "Probably. You'd have to get creative."

Have you guys met Arionna, yet?

To that, Ian just nodded.

Arionna de la Babin
"Play?" It's a question of uncertainty because hide-and-seek has rarely been about play. She cants her head to the side and regards Elijah, and now the group with a bit more wariness than before. Of course this could hardly be much fun in a park right? There are trees and other good things, but it loses its fun when you lose the possibility of getting lost; or getting people lost.

"They know who I am, Alexander." Though Ian has already answered his portion of it. She steps forward slowly, enough so that they can speak normally. "How do you play this game?"

Yes. Ari hasn't a clue how to play child games. She might have more fun than she'd suspect.

Elijah
"I have a story for you, I'll have you know that Latin tutors aren't half as boring as it sounds," who would have thought the young man to have an interest in language (anyone who knows him would, actually, you don't have a love affair with words without loving each blessed detail of language, trying to piece it together to find where it may trace back to something True. Kalen might be proud. Or he might not. The path was still rocky there, but getting better.)

There's that grin, though, the kind that is ready for anything, even if it was a little childish. Was he serious? He blazes past the question in time to explain to Arionna- "It's basically that someone is it? And they cover their eyes and count to, like, sixty, and everyone runs off and hides and the person who is it has to find them and the people who are hiding have to find home base and get there to be save so the person who is it can't actually tag them but if the person who is it is really slow you end up being it for a long time and people end up tending the safe base because they don't want to actually find people who are hiding which is against the spirit of the game."

Wow. All that in one breath. He inhaled deeply.

"Basically, it is what it sounds like. The people who aren't it hide. The person who is it seeks. The people who aren't it go to home base to be safe from predation."

And, to Alexander, "Yeah, I've met Ari, we're friends." And just like that, he makes the assumption, runs with it, doesn't think it could be to the contrary because... well... he was fairly certain Arionna was his friend.

"Who wants to start?"

Alexander
“You’ve never played before?”  There isn’t judgement in the question to Arionna, but there is surprise.  It seems like one of those things that all kids should play at some point, just like climbing trees, playing tag, or pointing their bike down a big hill and regretting their decision half way down when the line between getting down safely and breaking something gets ever slimmer.  “It’s fun, you’ll like it.”

As to the question of who’s starting?  “I’m easy.”

Ian
Elijah assumed that he and Arionna were friends because Elijah was the kind of person who made friends with everyone. Ian... was not that kind of person. Both Arionna and Alexander had expressed dislike towards him in the past. Arionna's had been rather emphatic. That they were now all considering playing a child's game together in the park at night probably said something about the way people with common experiences tended to band together.

"I'll start."

He hadn't played hide and seek since his sister died. If anyone other than Elijah had suggested it, he probably would have declined. But... for whatever reason, he didn't. Perhaps there was a bit of nostalgia, there.

"We can make the boathouse home base." A pause before he grinned. "I'll count to 100. Better hurry." Then he paced over to the bench by the lake and sat down.

Arionna de la Babin
"What is it?" She asks, furrowing her brows just enough to indicate that all her questions have not been answered. This game seems half put together instead of well thought out; clearly a child's game. "Oh. You mean 'it' is the predator and those you seek are the prey. I understand. Though it does seem most intelligent to stay near this 'home base' if you know that the prey will come. "

You've never played before?

"If you wish to ask whether I have been chased, then your answer is yes. If you want to ask whether I did it 'for fun' then the answer is no."

"How far can we wander?" It made sense to her to have a sort of perimeter that they could wander around in, otherwise they'd be searching until dawn.

Her lips tightened a little, and Ari looked to both Alex and Elijah. Well then, it seemed they were about to play hide and seek....for fun.

Elijah
[stop running and don't fall over! +2 diff because slick grass is not your friend]

Dice: 3 d10 TN8 (6, 8, 10) ( success x 2 )

Elijah
"OhshitrunIan'sfast," it's the most warning he gives anyone.

There is a simple rule in survival: you don't have to be faster than a bear. You just have to be faster than the slowest person there. Elijah realized, of course, that he was the weakest link. His eyes darted to a nearby tree and he sprinted for it, knowing that he was going to need a run up if he was going to be able to reach a low hanging tree branch, momentum to help pull himself up because he wasn't exactly strong but damned if he wasn't determined.

But Arionna had a question and it made him skid to a halt, successfully managing to not fall flat on his face while doing so.

"Ian is the one doing the chasing. If he makes physical contact with you then you're it and he's not. Then you count and we all hide again. No perimeter, just as far as you can get while he's counting."

Elijah stopped and listened realizing he's talked too much and lost a good thirty seconds of time.

"Shit."

And off to try and get to that tree again!

Alexander
There’s a moment where the fun of the bizarre situation threatens to vanish, as Arionna doesn’t seem to quite get the point and bring their thoughts crashing back to reality.  But there’s Elijah, dashing off and, with two quick U-turns, gets things back on track again.

Then Alexander is laughing and rushing off towards the trees too, calling back, “Just get away first, then worry about how you’re going to get back to the boathouse.  We can go find jello and ice cream somewhere after!”  He takes a path to the right of Elijah’s, aiming for a lighter patch of trees where he’d be able to make better time through the spaces and get further away.

Ian
When Ian sat down, he began counting, his voice raised to a loud enough pitch that the others would be able to hear if they kept within a reasonable radius. He closed his eyes as he did so, leaning back with his face tilted toward the sky and his arms draped over the back of the bench. The wooden slats felt cold, despite Alexander's recent presence there. Cold and wet, apart from the drier patch that Ian now occupied.

He could cheat, if he wanted to. Though they hadn't really laid out any specific rules about magic use. He could cheat, but he didn't. Why make the game easier?

So he counted, and the others ran for their respective hiding spots. For Ian, time seemed to pass slowly, drifting by with the monotonous rhythm of his voice.

"98... 99... 100."

When he reached the end, he opened his eyes and stood up, surveying the darkened landscape. Some time during the count, the lamps came on, filling the space around the bench with a soft glow of yellow light. There were others too, lining the path and the boathouse. But the trees remained in shadow.

Ian moved quietly, his gait different now than it had been earlier. Stealthy, predatory (hunting.)

[Alright let's see. I'll start with another Awareness roll to see how sensitive he is to resonance right now.]

Dice: 6 d10 TN6 (1, 2, 2, 3, 4, 6) ( success x 1 )

Ian
[And Per+Alertness]

Dice: 6 d10 TN4 (1, 1, 4, 5, 7, 8) ( success x 4 )

Ian
[Wits+Survival (tracking)]

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (2, 5, 8, 10, 10) ( success x 3 )

Ian
[And Dex+Stealth - being quiet]

Dice: 7 d10 TN6 (3, 4, 4, 7, 8, 10, 10) ( success x 4 )

Elijah
(Elijah: did I get into the tree? dex+athletics)

Dice: 3 d10 TN6 (4, 5, 9) ( success x 1 )

Elijah
[Shhhhh, i'm being quiet! +1 diff because no stealth}

Dice: 2 d10 TN7 (5, 10) ( success x 2 ) [WP]

Arionna de la Babin
[stealth]

Dice: 3 d10 TN6 (2, 4, 7) ( success x 1 )

Alexander
[Dex+Ath for some distance]

Dice: 6 d10 TN6 (2, 2, 5, 5, 9, 9) ( success x 2 )

Arionna de la Babin
He's already counting when Elijah tries to explain her questions. She's never felt this sort of uncertainty before. She's never stood there for a moment, considering what's happening before letting her feet carry her off. But that's what she does. The two of them run, clearly enjoying the game at hand, and she stands there for a moment, listening to the counting...

Ari finally forces her feet to push her off and she's running down the middle of where the other two had wandered, sliding to the right as she tries to spot herself some place to hide. Parks are different. Manicured. Perfect. Not as many hiding spots when you're accustom to the wild sort of space.

But she finds a bush, something big enough that she's certain she can crawl half in it, and tuck herself away.

This is not the best place to hide Arionna.

She knows that. She really does. But she's pressed for time.

Alexander
[Dex+Stealth for sneakiness]

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (1, 1, 4, 6, 9) ( success x 2 )

Alexander
[And Wit+Survival, because I know some of the tricks you're going to try]

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (1, 2, 2, 4, 7) ( success x 1 )

Elijah
He's not good at climbing.

He knows what he needs to do, spends a good five seconds just hanging there, not quite having the upper body strength to pull himself up and it's through willpower alone that he gets his skinny butt into the foliage. The tree creaked uncomfortably, and he nestled himself somewhere high in the branches.

He might not be hidden terribly well, but he was going to make it difficult for Ian to actually reach him. Now, all he could do was hope that he doesn't get driven higher.

Alexander
Elijah runs towards the trees, hoping that he just isn’t the slowest one to get away.  Alexander just gets the edge and disappears into the tree line before him.  But they’re both leaving Arionna behind as they look for their respective hiding places.

Once out of view, Alex slows down a little and gets a little more careful about how he’s moving.  He has no idea if Ian knows much about tracking, but leaving dirty great footprints and lots of broken twigs and branches in his wake wouldn’t be hard for anyone to spot.  So he tries to make it harder to be followed as he works out a way to curve back to the boathouse.

Arionna de la Babin
[Do I see the big bad wolf? per+alert]

Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (1, 6, 6, 7, 8) ( success x 4 )

Ian
The odds were stacked in Ian's favor. Most of them likely knew that. But that wasn't really why they were playing (to win.) Alexander made an attempt to hide his tracks, anticipating the ways in which Ian might try to find him. And he was successful to a point, but the ground was soft (easily marked) and Ian was a good tracker. That month he'd spent surviving in a wasted landscape had been good for something, at least.

And there were other clues as well. Soft sounds (the creak of a tree branch,) a flicker of movement, a faint spot of color through shadowed leaves. His eyes followed the trail of tracks, leading his gaze toward three potential hiding places. Even before that, he had a rough idea of the directions they'd gone (closing his eyes did not mean he stopped being able to hear - even while counting.) But he wouldn't know for sure until he followed one of the trails, so he did.

Arionna, being the closest, was the easiest target. Elijah the next easiest. Alexander would likely be safe this round. After a short pause of consideration, Ian made for the bushes where Arionna was crouched, sliding quickly through the shadows. His feet were silent in the damp grass, and his dark athletic clothes blended easily into the landscape. She wouldn't notice him coming until he was close. Likely by then she'd feel his resonance before she actually spotted him.

Closer. Closer.

If she didn't run, he'd duck under the bush and reach out to grasp her ankle (gently.)

Arionna de la Babin
[running! I think]

Dice: 3 d10 TN6 (2, 2, 4) ( fail )

Arionna de la Babin
The rule has always been thus for the prey...

If the predator is far away and you've noticed him, you are safe enough to freeze and give a signal that says 'Hey I spotted you and I can outrun you.' If the predator is smart, he will stop. Why waste energy if you're more likely to lose?

If the predator is close, running is usually a bad idea. He might miss you if you're careful, but he's also likely to get you if you run. It's hard being prey, it really is.

So she waits, and she can feel his approach before she sees him. The trouble that she has is this:

Is he coming for her or one of the others? She could cheat, though she'd hardly consider it so. There were no explicit rules against magic. But that takes time, and right now..being still is better.

That is until he's closing in. Arionna presses her right boot into the ground to propel herself up and out except...

She doesn't quite make it. She pushes, sliding up and out of the bush only to feel her left foot, the one to give her a bit more leverage, slip under her. Her leg curls and Arionna plummets to the softer ground with an obvious crunch of sticks, and a thud.

Curse you Ian.

Elijah
[dex+athletics- go higher!]

Dice: 3 d10 TN6 (5, 8, 10) ( success x 2 )

Elijah
There was relief, yes relief, when he...

No, no he didn't see Ari. He didn't see Ian either. After all, he was actually just pretty well content to be in a tree and not getting rained on, but it was enough to remind him precisely how cold he was and what time it was and he took a quick second to check his pocketwatch- still only accurate twice a day, save for the times that he can keep time to the precise second.

He notices, he notices Ari move and faceplant and he winces. The young man inhaled quickly, hoping at least that Arionna didn't know where he was so he didn't have to try getting out of the tree. Instead, he went upward, content to entrench himself further like he had the time that he got stuck in a tree at the park.

Hmmn. This appeared to be a theme with Elijah. He patted himself down for his cell phone, realizing that this time he didn't have the ability to call Dan for moral support to get out of a tree.

"Oh, shit."

Alexander
Alexander slowly, carefully works his way through the trees, unaware of what’s happened with Arionna’s attempt to run.  It seems like a decent plan – keep in the trees until he’s close enough to make a break for the boathouse.  Hope that Ian is busy with one of the others so that he doesn’t notice.  There’s a smile on his face as he takes another step…

And steps awkwardly on a stone, twisting his ankle.  There’s a muffled crash as he hits the ground and a not-so-muffled curse as the pain hits.  He leans against a tree to get up again but isn’t doing anything strenuous with that sprained ankle for a few days.  He starts to hobble towards open ground.

[And Alexander’s driver needs to crawl to bed, so am taking him out of the running.]

Arionna de la Babin
[get some rest vesta!]

Ian
There was a moment, after Arionna fell, that Ian's instincts wanted to pounce. He felt an uptick in his heart-rate and a prickle of hot tension in his coiled muscles that practically screamed: now.

But Arionna was sensitive about her physical space, and he remembered things like that. So he didn't. Instead he dropped into a crouch next to her and let his fingers graze her arm, making just enough contact to call the catch official. If she didn't pull away, he'd grasp her elbow gently and help her to her feet. If she did, he'd leave her be.

"Got you." His voice was low and honeyed with amusement. As they stood up, he called out to the others. "Round's over!"

As it happened, Arionna wasn't the only one whose escape plan was foiled by the hazardous landscape. After noting Alex's condition, Ian walked over to the tree where Elijah had gotten himself stuck. "I think maybe we should call it a night and try again when the ground isn't so slippery."

A beat later he asked, "Do you need any help?"

Elijah
[I can totally jump down. It's like falling, right?]

Dice: 3 d10 TN6 (1, 7, 9) ( success x 3 ) [WP]

Arionna de la Babin
She's embarrassed. Not necessarily because she fell, but that she fell around them. Well, at least it wasn't Grace and Kalen, right? She'd nearly want to drown herself if that happened; Ari would never live it down...at least in her own head.

There's a touch on her arm, apparently the motion of 'tag' and Ari is now the predator. She pushes herself up on her feet, avoiding the assistance that's even remotely offered. She can feel the wet earth on her clothes, soaking in against her legs and she sighs. It really isn't any trouble, but at least it helps to hide the embarrassment.

Ari looks over towards the limping Alex, and now Elijah as well, following Ian slowly. "In a better location I'd suggest. With more holes and less concrete."

Elijah
He thinks that they should call it a night-

"Yeah, it's a little unkind right now-" he said as he looked down. He was a good midway up the tree, high enough that he had a good view but not so far that he would break an uneasy branch. It feels a little like Peter Pan, but the young man started the tentative approach downward. A little careful, shaking water out of the branches if he chose a wrong step-

"Uh..."

He looks down, hand on a branch and painfully aware that he's kind of high up and it made his stomach turn but something is alight and pleased in his eyes as a terrible thought crosses his mind. Not quite like jumping out of a plane, but close enough.

Does he need any help?

He jumps, possibly in the middle of the statement, probably in the middle of the statement, doesn't topple, but does bend his knees and take the impact softly. It's through sheer wanting that he doesn't fall all over himself. That he doesn't make a total mess while coming down the maple, but he does just stand there for a minute while he reorients himself with the ground, then the ground top the air, standing up, being tall and exhaling like this was the most centering thing he'd do all day.

He looks a little surprised, though. He clearly didn't expect to not fall on his ass.

"Sounds like a plan," he announces, "if you guys are game I'd love to play again. Had a blast."

All sincerity, this one. With that in mind, he doesn't say much but his goodbyes- no kisses or touches but definitely bright, beaming, pleased grins as he meanders- soggy but content- back to his means of conveyance.

Ian
[I believe that's a wrap! Thanks for playing guys! I am off to sleep.]

Arionna de la Babin
[ditto! night]

Apologies

Arionna
It was hard to say exactly how she felt about a lot of things. She knew she wasn't the best person, particularly when it came to other people, and that she pushed people away because...well she felt it was necessary. It saved them all really. But did it? She questioned herself, the more she interacted with specific individuals.

They had both lost their heads, even she could recognize that. She wouldn't have cared if it were most other people. So what if she hurt their feelings? So what if she upset them? They weren't important anyway. People were people, and she wasn't going to bother herself with caring about them. Ari had herself to think about,  particularly in a world that wasn't very kind to her. But Eli...she had admitted to his face that she saw him differently, and she wasn't entirely sure why that was. He was just... different. She liked being around him most.

Ari stretched her arms over the table of the booth, pressing her head momentarily against the cold surface. If she could curse people...

She sat back up, setting her hands in her lap slowly. The menus were sitting there, a cup of coffee for her while she waited. She had told him she was sorry, and that should mean something. Ari...didn't apologize. She wouldn't apologize for being her, but she -had.- Twice.  And she offered him food, of all things. Cheap, but food. So there they were, or would be once he arrived.

She pressed her elbow on the table and set her chin in her hand as she stared out the window. Her dark hair had been braided out of her face, the makeup left for some other night, and she dared to wear a deep green long sleeve with some old graphic on it. A band maybe? It was too faded. The point was, she wasn't feeling it, clothing wise.

Elijah
Eventually, he did pick up the motorcycle. It was parked outside of the Waffle House, and the herald to his arrival was its motor cutting off and the careful dismount of someone who's been riding for awhile. There are words to be had, careful words, but he wasn't a careful creature. Except for when he was.

He'd apologized, a little at first but he had to do it the first thing when he saw her.

The jacket was discarded, and his hair was a mess. His hair was always a mess. Elijah took a seat across from Ari, not beside her.

"I never should have invaded your space, it was wrong," he admits. He implores, he apologizes because words make it make more sense than just text messages.

Arionna
"Maybe." She said. A person can come up with a thousand different scenarios in their head, a thousand different ways they should act around someone, and never actually do them. Instead, they act as they've always acted because it's familiar...it's comfortable.

She kept her attention out of the window for a moment, then slowly look to him. "I understand why you did it. There's no fault given to you. It's how you would have acted with anyone. I may be cold, but I'm hardly ignorant. Though I think it might have gone better if you hadn't known discomfort, though I understand why you did that too."

Elijah
"You're not even cold," he said, insisted, "you're not distant, you're not... not unless you want to be, anyway."

He sighed. He looked at her and his attentions didn't meander and he was there for her. With her. Like she was the whole world there and the world could fall apart, the stars could blot themselves from the sky and he wouldn't notice because he had a singular focus.

"BUt it's your body though. Your body, your space, your rules. That's how it works"

Arionna
"You make it seem simple. A turn of the key and someone can be something they aren't. I want to tell you that I like how I am, and perhaps in some way I do, but I wouldn't know how to be any else. The warmth you and your friends provide...well I'm not really the sort to do that."

Arionna shrugged just a little, and when the waitress came over, she ordered pancakes for herself.
"I know it is. I suppose I meant only to say that I'm not angry at you for it, if that's a concern that you have. It was just....unexpected. I didn't have a moment to think really. " She pursed her lips slowly, considering her words and letting her attention fall to the table. "I didn't really have friends. Well, not after a certain age. I know that people here are a little different. But at home, they weren't very kind. I don't mean that in the, oh they spoke ill of me, sort of way. Mostly I was pushed away from most things, but as one knows, mistreatment rarely exists purely in the form of social ostracism. I don't think the details are all that important, suffice to say that I'm not very accustom to the sort of affection you give to others. At least not in the manner you mean it."

She lifted her gaze a little to look at him. "And I don't say that so you can pity me. I hate it when people do that. Just..."

Elijah
He ordered waffles.

A waffle, specifically. And hashbrowns with cheese. And a cheese burger with extra pickles. And chocolate milk.

The waitress looked at him as though she was fairly certain that Elijah, despite the fact that he seemed sober, must be incredibly high right now because his order was so achingly specific with the randomness there. It was something that was very clearly thought out.

"Friends don't pity each other," he said. "You can feel sad for someone, you can feel empathy for their bad experiences, but... friends don't pity each other. Pity is condescending."

He took a second, looked at the table and carefully reached for the sugar packets. Elijah idly started rearranging, "I get that it's hard to trust people, though. It's... everyone struggles with it."

Arionna
[wp]
Dice: 4 d10 TN6 (6, 8, 9, 9) ( success x 4 )

Arionna
The look. The look from the waitress made her lips curl up in a slow smile. "Pregnancy does wonders doesn't it? Next he'll be craving onions and peanut butter." And she smiled a bit more as if she found her own joke amusing. She was never very good at them, but it was amusing to her, to think of Elijah having pregnancy cravings. Enough so that she let out a small laugh.

She waited a moment before they were left alone; waited for the amusement to die off. Then it was back to business, her attention focused on him and his...need to touch sugar packets.

There was no laughter anymore. Ari let her hand drop from her chin, and watched his hand for a moment, mulling over it...thinking, considering what she thought to do, and then she did it. And it felt like the easiest thing in the world to do. She reached over and set her hand on his.

"Do you struggle with it, Bacchus?"

Elijah
"Three months and I'm not even showing," he said, put a hand on his stomach and quirked a little smile, "nobody believes me."

He had to grin, knowing full well that he does eat like a pregnant woman, and he really... really does. If Arionna knew the number of cupcakes he ate on a somewhat regular basis she would be shocked that he was slender to begin with. Also, if she knew that most of his calories came from tequila and sugar she would probably be surprised he wasn't dead yet, but that was neither here nor there.
He looked at her hand on top of his, stayed still for a moment and it was enough to remind him that he didn't need to fidget. He looked up and nodded a little.

"You'd be surprised at how easy it is to keep people at arms length when you're social. Give people just enough to think they know you, and just enough that you are fun but you don't have to be more. It's hard being human and not a concept."

Arionna
She didn't move. Because if she did, she might not have the ability to do it again. It wasn't easy, even if it felt like it at the moment. It was only so easy because she was feeling alright. But if the mood shifted, she might lose her own control over herself; she'd put him at arms length again. Elijah...she didn't want to do that to.

"Fun is over-rated. Fun is just a set of neurochemicals released during specific activities. Fun is nice, sometimes, but I find comfort to be far more acceptable. Fun is far too short lived." She used her other hand to set her chin on the palm. "Then why do you do it? I realize how ...I can be, and how strange it must be to ask you that. But I find it strangest given your love of people. It's not simply a matter of sociality but joy. If you find joy in others, how is it difficult to give to them who you are entirely?"

Elijah
"I've made some bad choices before, and... I ended up in the ER a few times because people I thought I'd trusted didn't actually seem worthy of that kind of trust," he said, "giving people all of yourself requires accepting everything about who you are."

He inhaled again. He said he was going to try. He said he was going to try being more honest, he said he was going to give more, he said he was going to be there even if it didn't matter who he would be there for.

"And it's a rush, being around people and having that adoration and having those crazy times are a rush because of the moments and the stories but... the kind of people I used to be friends with? Spend time with? The kind of people Jenn couldn't stand after I awakend?"

He stops.

"It just turns you off of wanting to give all of anything, because there's parts you don't get back."

Arionna
"Being alone in a crowded room."

"I think that's the term used in situations similar to that. I wouldn't ever understand how that must feel of course, but I assume it's like putting on a show. Pretending to be something if only because you receive social praise. Humans adore social praise; everyone needs it sometimes to feel accepted."
"Though I can understand, truly, what it's like, what it feels like to require yourself to pull away because if you don't, you'll likely just be ripped apart. It's not an enjoyable feeling. Though...if you do it long enough Eli, you'll numb yourself to the effects, and it'll be harder to let it go." She tilted her head a little at him. "For someone like you, I imagine that turning numb to it will hurt you far more than others. You need people."

The orders came and Arionna slowly pulled her hand away to make room for the food, sitting back and taking in a breath as she soaked the sponges in syrup and cut into them.

Elijah
"I told you when we met that I was a good liar," he said, "it's a self-defense mechanism. It's second nature sometimes. It's not a good thing, but it is what it is."

he took the top off his burger and carefully started rearranging pickles, because they were never actually in the place that he needed them. Always just on one side, and how irritating was that?
"It's weird... because I need... I need people. I know I need people. I know that I need to give and I need to have friends and I need to be part of something bigger because I've been alone before and I almost lost myself. And when you're alone, you get to pick yourself apart, you know your flaws, you learn what kind of person you really are and you think would people even want to be around this person? So you lie. So you pretend, and then you're in too deep."

He put his sandwich back together, clearing his throat, "anyway, it's a load of bullshit and it sucks. It's really easy to think of why people shouldn't trust you so you have an excuse not to trust them, but it's important."

Arionna
"I don't think you're quite as good as you think you are. I saw how some of my words bothered you, and I saw how you attempted to keep it hidden." So Elijah was that sort hm? To rearrange the way the burger was to suit his own needs. Most people just accepted it.

"I think the worst of it, is when you become what people expect of you. They demonize you for something, or maybe they abuse you, doesn't matter really...people do cruel things." She took a bite of her pancakes, then poked them a little with her fork. "And you think, 'well, if you're going to treat me as it, I might as well be it. Then all of this will make sense. ' Then you start to wonder if they already knew you would be that way, and it wasn't that they molded you, but that there was always something off, and they simply knew it, you simply never did." There was a momentary pause and she followed up quickly with, "Well, for some people anyhow."

"If you believe you ought not to be trusted, I believe you're being far too hard on yourself. You've been reliable so far, far more than others who might consider themselves trustworthy."

Elijah
{Per+empathy- talking bout yourself?]
Dice: 7 d10 TN6 (2, 3, 4, 5, 9, 10, 10) ( success x 3 )

Arionna
[man +subt]
Dice: 4 d10 TN6 (2, 2, 7, 7) ( success x 2 )

Elijah
"I told Grace once that I didn't want anyone to put their full trust in me, and she told me that it wasn't my choice if people chose to trust me or not."

A beat passed and the took a bite of the recently arranged burger. He listened, nodded along and took in what she was saying.

"You remind of of Elphaba from Wicked. The musical at least, I didn't read the book. But she's a witch and everyone thinks that she's not to be trusted because she's green, but she's very gifted. People use her for their own purposes, she's very passionate about the rights of the oppressed- anyway, I'm not doing it justice. There's a line that says was I really seeking good or just seeking attention?. That always stuck with me."

A second, "you know, some people go places and start fresh because they need to change their definition."

Arionna
"I suppose she's right in that. One can't force another to believe in them, anymore than one can force themselves to believe in something." She cut another lump, shoving it in her mouth and giving a glance to the window. "I'm not sure if I should be amused you compare me to another witch, given my predilection." She doesn't comment about attention, or good, or whatever he's trying to tell her. She lets that slide off. Or maybe she hasn't quite caught onto it.

"I didn't come here by choice. I was brought here because of my mother. I would have vanished in the forest somewhere if I had been given the option. "

"Were you always so intent on your free-love attitude? I like to imagine you were."

Elijah
"I'm really just telling you that I think you'd be able to pull off being green pretty well," he teased, nothing malicious just a little flirtatious. A little amused.

"Actually, yeah," he said, "it wasn't something that was, like, born of not giving a fuck about people because... even after everything I like people."

His lips upturned, something almost coy but not quite, "it just ended up having more meaning when I woke up. like, and it's not... it's not sex. Sex is different. Sex is sex- you don't have to care about someone to have sex with them, but like... love. Like actual love or caring or affection or whatever has always been something that I don't see a point in restricting because it just hurts people. It's stifling. It's like ignoring a vital part of yourself."

Arionna
"You're an idealist." She said softly. "An optimistic idealist. It's not necessarily a terrible trait. Many successful and influential people imagined worlds that would have seemed impossible at the time. Now we live in those worlds...somewhat anyhow. I've never been one much myself, but you seem to fit it quite well. Suits you, I think, with your golden attitude."

"Though I can't say I know much of either really. Both of them seem foreign to me. I know how I feel about mama. It's always been a mix with her, but I know that I care deeply about her well-being. That always made sense, despite her being the cause of so much. She is my mother after all, I ought to have some feeling for her. For people I've never known, or ever will know, it seems strange to simply...enjoy them fully with or without intercourse. Suppose I've never seen the need for it."
"It makes me curious, when you speak of it so freely. Like watching an exhibit through a glass wall. You can see the actions, watch the actors, understand the basic behaviors, and yet wonder as to the purpose of it." She tilted her head, looking at his burger and then him. "I'm...pleased you're content with it, no matter how little of it I understand."

Elijah
"I've heard a lot of fucked up stuff, I prefer to think of things that are better than what's already happened," he replies. "Like... caring about someone else, even if it's just in an abstract way, makes you more aware of things about yourself. It's finding the similarities, loving the differences, it's... it's poetry. It's language."

There's a way he says his words sometimes, with that faint southern twang and that quiet boyish reverence. He's a wide-eyed sort.

"It's more of a children's museum than the Smithsonian. We're supposed to touch the exhibits."

Arionna
"You remind me of artists, or our perception of them. Very...open. Expressive. Philosophical in their approach to life. " She set her fork down and slid her plate to the side, leaving most of the pancakes, even if she generally dislike waste. "Though I'm curious how someone can be cared for in a non-abstract way."

She likes his sunny disposition, but then, who doesn't? Everyone flocked to him. Everyone enjoyed being around him. It seemed only natural that she might too. Ari let out a small laugh. "I'm not sure if this has taken an erotic turn or not, though it seems like it has. Touching, as you say it, reduces objectivity. It turns it into a subjective experience."

Elijah
"It's me. Basically, everything devolves into eroticism if I stand around too long," he grinned, "but it's life. Living is supposed to be subjective because it's your experience. Nobody else can have it, nobody else can tell you what sand feels like or what air tastes like."

A second passes, "and okay, caring is abstract- you're right- but instead of caring I mean caring for the idea of a person, caring about the possibility of another person instead of an actual person."

Arionna
"That's not entirely true. There are generalizations of tastes and experiences based on the specific firing of neurons. Certain tastes are a response to specific chemicals. When we describe taste, we describe what the human organism senses. Barring those individuals who are considered outliers, it is likely that what a food tastes like to me is similar to what it tastes like to you. My preference for that food is what alters our experience. "

"I suppose there are some experiences best felt by the individual based on a number of variables that might influence the subjective aspect."

"I'm not...I don't understand how one can care for the idea of a person and not a person themselves. Doesn't that seem to ignore the individual as being important on their own? Or what the person is, rather than what they could be?"

Elijah
"You're over-intellectualizing the point instead of dealing with the idea of what I said- you have to write your own experiences. Defeats the whole purpose of the whole thought exercise of life being subjective instead of objective. Like... so you don't have to deal with the emotions or the feeling of it all."

How could someone care about the idea of a person?

"Like... caring about what happens to victims of war. You don't know these people, these people are an abstract concept, they're not individuals with wants and desires, they're ideas with something attached to them, and you can care about them by caring about certain topics. Being offended by injustice, for instance. And hell, you can care about a person's actuality and you can care about their potential because they're the same. Love people as they are, not for what they could be, but you can hope for that better outcome I'd think."

Arionna
Arionna cast a side glance to him, her lips tightening. "No, I'm explaining why your point doesn't work. I wouldn't read too far into my behavior or you might come out with the wrong interpretation, as many often do."

Ari slid her cup of coffee closer to herself and took a slow sip of it, thinking before she bothered to speak again. "Do you honestly care about them? Do you honestly love them? I imagine that it's not love that you're feeling. Love, I suspect, isn't a sensation that can be given to just any individual without knowledge of who they are. You may have compassion, but that's hardly the same as love Elijah."

Elijah
"I don't think so," he said, "because I don't think it's actually possible to know someone. You can try, but we're complicated. You learn to love someone in trying to know them. I don't think compassion and love are that different- you can't have compassion for someone or something that you don't, at least marginally, love."

A second passed, and he had a fork full of hashbrowns.

"I either honestly love people I've never met, or I've never actually loved anything. They're both two very real possibilities. "

Arionna
"Compassion requires only empathy. Love doesn't. An individual can love someone who is cruel, harsh, evil, due to continued exposure and familiarity...and of course their own innate insecurities. An individual can also have compassion without feeling the intimate connection of love. " She flicked the edge of her cup idly. "I think you're creating a false dichotomy. Those are not the only options available, but the ones you're creating yourself. "

Ari slowly set her chin back on her hand. "I can feel compassion for an individual. I can feel sorry for someone I've never met, yet I feel no intimate connection. I don't love them, but I understand them."

Elijah
[Per+empathy- what are you looking for me to say?]
Dice: 7 d10 TN6 (2, 4, 7, 9, 10, 10, 10) ( success x 5 )

Elijah
"It's not that you have to be all-or-nothing, it's that I think it's more complicated than that. I don't think love is this huge all-abiding, all-encompassing, warm-and-fuzzy-dove reaction. That's part of it, but that's more infatuation," he said, "and I don't think it's a false dichotomy, I'm just admitting to you that there is a good chance that I actually have no idea what love actually is and, as such, probably haven't actually done it of my own volition."

Arionna
"I imagined love to be more like Morticia and Gomez." She said over her coffee. "Dramatic but reliable. Passionate in its own way. Certainly there is that period of infatuation, where you obsess and can't live without them. But I imagine love to retain some aspect of that. You grow tired of them sometimes, but when you're far away for too long, you begin to feel as if something is missing." Arionna shrugged softly. "I imagined it like that anyway. Likely far more boring."

"Even if you don't, truly know love, in some ways I envy you, you know."

Elijah
"I think Morticia and Gomez have a type of love... think if all people were like that I'd become a damn monk, or I'd be downright intolerable. Because jesus, I'm already pretty insufferable as it is." He can't help but grin, take another bite of hashbrowns because he's slowly making his way through his food, picking at things not unlike a bird instead of descending voraciously on them like a teenage boy should.

"Why do you envy me?"

Arionna
Ari pushed her cup to the edge of the table to be refilled once the waitress came by. "I don't consider you insufferable." She said softly, letting her eyes watch out from the booth instead of looking at him. "Different, certainly, but not insufferable. There are those I might consider that term to be used for."
To Ari, the answer is simple enough that anyone could see it. Why would she envy someone like Eli? "You are my opposite, in many ways. It makes it easier for you to wander among everyone. You are loved and adored. Your friends care deeply, and you to them. I have little doubt that if you required aid, someone would come."

Elijah
"I have definitely tested the limits of their patience," he said, replied casually enough but so casually that it would seem his answer was anything but casual. Everyone has limits, everyone has edges that they can push and Elijah knows what those limits are... or at least thinks he does.
There are limits to Kalen's patience and he has yet to find them. he has been forgiven more times for things he can't barely begin to understand, finds himself astounded that his mentor hasn't washed his hands of his student despite the numerous times that it has been made clear that lesser people would be done.

"sometimes, if you just ask for help, people will offer it."

Arionna
"Tested isn't the same as losing. It's suppose to be normal to upset your friends sometimes. Because you're different.People are different in enough ways that they won't agree on everything." When the coffee was refilled, she pulled it closer and began to doctor it with cream and sugar.
Ask for help. Alex said the same thing, but she's not sure that's entirely what she even means."Who exactly would I ask? Kalen? Doubtful. Grace? I'd rather not. Kiara? She'll likely just suggest crystal healing and positive energy. Sera? And let us suppose that there is someone to ask. What wold I ask for help with?"

"From what I have seen, I survive best without interference from others. And what assistance can those like them give me that I can't provide for myself? At least on my own, it costs me less in the end. People expect things."

Elijah
"Of course people expect things, it's a two way street. Like- I asked you for help with Jenn. That was a big deal , and I know that's a big deal, so I always just kind of presumed that since I'd asked that of you then you'd know you could ask the same of me. If I can do something for you, I'm going to do it for you. I'd be a dick if I was just like thanks for going out on a limb for me, Ari. Deuces!"

He's run out of hashbrowns. That's the worst, because he likes hashbrowns. He likes things with cheese on them and he has half of a burger left and a rapidly cooling waffle, which he tears into quarters and starts to make a little puddle of syrup for. He's particular, this one. About his waffles, at least.
He does laugh, though. "Dude, you talk about Kiara like she personally burned down your village and murdered your puppy."

Arionna
"You think I actually believe that if I really wanted something, someone would give it to me? Even you?" Elijah, currently, is the only real person she can talk to, and yet she'd still doubt he'd ever be as reliable with her as he would with anyone else.

Ari set both of her hands on the table. "She the worst sort of witch. Neopagans, Wiccans, are the sort who misunderstand how the old ways were. They glorify our work only when it suits their hippy needs and reject the understanding that sometimes, you have to get your hands dirty. The conceptual framework of 'do no harm' is ludicrous. How does one measure 'harm' and how does one know that their magic won't harm someone in the future? Magic, our magic, is messy. It's cruel. There are moments of greatness and positivity, but one can't have the light without the shadows. They harm us by making our faith a fad. A fad that rejects half of what true magic entails. It's an insult to our ancestors, to my ancestors."

"Have you read any of their so called 'magical books.' Their rituals? They're...obscene. I imagine many of our gods scowl at these watered down attempts to commune."

Elijah
"You won't know until you try," he informs her, "Kalen told em that... at some point... you have to take the leap. And you have to jump and just trust someone is going to be there. Sometimes they will be, and that will feel fantastic, and sometimes they won't. But you don't know which it will be until you jump."

This was coming from someone who has literally jumped out of planes.

"Have you actually talked to her about her beliefs, or are you just assuming that she's like everyone else. I feel like you're making some pretty broad and sweeping statements about her," a second passed, and he dropped his voice to something conspiratorial. he was in the middle of drowning a waffle at that juncture, like it was some unwanted child of a former lover, like hew was La Llorona and that waffle was one of his long lost children he felt so bad about rending asunder (but would anyway, because syrup is delicious).
"You know that the majority of my magic works on the concept that True Words created the universe and were spoken by beings that defy our mortal brains, right?"

Arionna
"And if you leap at the wrong person, at the wrong time, you'll get hurt. You might even die in the process. There is a higher probability of my failure if I rely on someone else, than if I rely on myself. I know my capabilities. I know what I can and can't do, and how well I can do those. I know my own motivations and my own desires. I don't know any of them. I'd be just as likely to trust a stranger."

"We had a brief conversation in an occult store. It was enough. I don't need the bits of details to know that she likely burns candles and says 'Blessed Be' after every incantation, as if the gods care." She slowly put her chin on her hand again. "You believe what you want to believe. "

Elijah
[Is that haughty superiority towards my belief system or are you being genuine?]
Dice: 7 d10 TN6 (3, 3, 4, 4, 5, 10, 10) ( success x 2 )

Elijah
"If you walk out the door at the wrong time you'll get hurt. If you don't jump at the right time, you could die, sometimes... it's not a bad thing. Sometimes it's worth the risk... I don't regret the choices I've made, but I know that... I know that, for me at least? I'm ready to try."
He can believe what he wants to believe.

"It works for me, just like it works for her. Maybe her gods aren't your gods. And your gods aren't my angels."

Arionna
Dice: 4 d10 TN7 (2, 7, 10, 10) ( success x 3 )

Arionna
Her fingers curl around the cup, tightening against the ceramic. "I'm not certain you realize the privileged position you're speaking from. Of course you're ready to try. If you falter, someone will pick you up somewhere. If falter, I have only myself. If you make a mistake, someone will be there for you. If I make a mistake, I have only myself. So of course you're ready to try. The cost to you is far less."

"They're all the same. It might just be that someone happens to favor her. That doesn't make her perceptions correct. It only means that she's been graced by someone who sees some value in helping her."

Elijah
"I'm a cisgendered affluent white male. I never know the position of privilege I'm speaking from."

"Anyway," he sticks to the subject of trust. Trust they could talk about because the young man's trepidation to talk to Arionna about magic was almost palpable. "If you falter, you have me. You don't have no one unless I'm Odysseus."
Arionna
"It's very high. In case you need to be informed."

Ari sighed softly, closing her eyes for a moment. "Just never mind. It's not important. Any of it."

"I'd like to believe you Elijah. In some way I know that I should. But I have to remember that you're far more like a cat than I've ever known someone to be."

Elijah
[WP: No touching.]
Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (5, 7, 9, 9, 10) ( success x 4 )

Elijah
"Have I done anything that has indicated that you can't believe that?" he dropped his voice again, almost reaches forward but, instead, deliberately puts his hands on the table. Doesn't reach forward, doesn't invade her space, doesn't do anything that he knows will scare her off because they've had this conversation and he knows where it ends.

"Arionna, I wasn't kidding at the aquarium. What do I have to do to prove to you that I can be judged on my own merits?"

Arionna
"I don't think I can answer your question. I don't think there's an answer to it. I can't, nor would I, send you on some grand quest. That would be overly dramatic and besides, there isn't anything. You're kind Elijah, really. But people who are kind are always hiding something. No one is that kind unless they're saving face or trying to make people like them. Who people are when no one is looking...that's what they really are. "

"I've seen people go to church, profess goodness and morality, give to charities, hold potlucks, and then, when no one watches, they throw stones...sometimes literally...at the people they dislike. What does that say about humanity but that we lie far too often to save ourselves."

Elijah
[This does not bother me!]
Dice: 7 d10 TN6 (1, 1, 6, 6, 6, 7, 9) ( success x 5 )

Arionna
[liiies]
Dice: 5 d10 TN6 (2, 3, 3, 5, 7) ( success x 1 )

Elijah
"And you're just trying to figure out what I'm hiding," the response was casual enough, "figure out if the church bleeds into every southern boy or not. Figure out whether or not I've got a weird Jeffrey Dahmer side or something."

Punctuated with a bite of waffle. Because waffles and people are about the same, right?
"Lying only buys you time, it never actually saves you. In the end it all falls apart."

Arionna
"I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, yes. The church is just, maybe, part of the problem. It's people, Elijah. Even your friends. Some of them were acceptable to begin with, and now? Now I wouldn't consider them so. Maybe.. maybe I'm not helping matters, but I shouldn't be the one who has to make all the important moves, now should I? That seems unfair."

"Yes, but by then...some of those people are dead and it matters very little. The lies too, sometimes others don't mind them, so long as the lies don't hurt them quite so much. And so long as they agree on why they lie."

Elijah
"It is unfair, but people aren't static creatures. Maybe time will go on and you'll get along better, it could be a number of things but I hope for the best. I mean, you gotta hope because if you don't then... well... what've you got, right?" Hope in one hand, you know how the rest of the statement goes. Elijah inhaled slowly.

"It's a cowards gambit, to lie, for that to be the default. Kind of hurts your spiritual growth because it limits your ability to actually take responsibility for your choices and actions. It's a thing."

Arionna
"I don't give much hope really. Not for people. Hope, most times, is really just lying to yourself about reality. I find it easiest to hold onto anger or disdain. You're less likely to be disappointed later." She set her hands on the table slowly. "Maybe it is, but that won't stop people from doing it. "

She tapped her finger lightly on her cup. "I dream, you know. Not stupid dreams. Dreams that sometimes mean things. Mama always thought of it as a gift from the dark, or my father, perhaps one in the same. I write them down, even if I don't know what they mean. Because some day...maybe they'll make sense. Of course they haven't been very pleasing in the last few years..."  Wait where was she going with this again? There -was- a point to it.

Elijah
"Dreams always mean something," he said, hands stayed on the table, he didn't reach forward, he didn't invade her space, but he wanted to. He wanted to hold her hand, wanted to feel the differences between her skin and the ceramic mug in her hands or how she might have been just the barest bit cold to the touch.

"What do you dream about now?"

Arionna
"I'm always a cougar in my dreams. Well..not always. But he's always there, somewhere. Sometimes I am him, and sometimes he is with me. But we are always together somehow." She closer her eyes for a moment. "Once I dreamed that I walked the earth before the trees ever came, and as I walked, the world was born. People came to inhabit it. They curled in their cabins, locked their doors at night to keep me from them. I've dreamt of preying on children, too young or reckless to know they shouldn't leave their homes at night. They hunted me after, of course, but the moment that I hunted...it was beautiful. "

"Last night, I was in my bath tub. I thought I had woken up from a dream, but I was in it. When I left, it was cold. The world was sleeping, and as I walked, it awoke. Leaves began to bloom, trees blossomed...the world was living again. It's not my world. Mama is far more like spring. She loved the flowers. He was there, my cougar. "

Elijah
"If a world that is living and breathing isn't yours, then which is yours?" he asks curiously. He pauses for a minute, dropping his voice and speaking quiet and conspiratorial. Interested, enthralled
"I think that cougar is you, or part of you, it's... it's a fundamental aspect of yourself, it's the part of you that guides you."

Arionna
"I've always felt closer to winter, when the nights are longest. Mama smells like flowers, feels like spring. She's always warm, but not the warmth of summer. Cooler. Refreshing in a sort of way."
Ari peeked at him slowly. "I don't know what he is. A past life, a spiritual animal, a god, a familiar of a god... difficult to know exactly what his purpose is. He doesn't speak." She curled her fingers against her lips, chin in her palm and looked back to the table. "We were both walking. Feeling the breeze, taking in the scent of the new season. The sun was rising, overtaking the world until all I could see were silhouettes of things. The further I walked, the more I realized there were people ahead of me. Ahead of him too. I..knew them somehow. I don't know who they were but I knew their voices. They felt...familiar.  They were happy. "

Elijah
"There's stuff I could tell you that I learned? But... it's kinda not something that we can talk about in public," he said, and for once he was trepidatious for a reason. It made sense. He inhaled slow and deep and centered. It felt strange to have things he knew, things he could impart to others. Things he could teach that would make things make sense.
Arionna
[wp]
Dice: 4 d10 TN6 (1, 2, 6, 8) ( success x 2 )

Arionna
Ari pressed her lips tight, her brows furrowing slowly. She didn't need to be a genius to figure out what he was saying, or insinuating. Ari sat up slowly and reached into her bag for a few bills, sliding them on the table.  When she looked back to Elijah, she forced a small smile. "Then somewhere private."

Elijah
"Your aunt's house? I promise, I'll be a gentleman. I won't even remark on the fact that you look fucking fantastic today. "

Arionna
She nodded softly. Ari hadn't a clue where he lived, but since he suggested her place, she'd only assume he was comfortable with his own...or he had someone there. And the moment he complimented her, Ari blinked and her face burned a little warmer than it had a few moments ago. "Except you already did."

Ari slipped out of the booth, bag hanging across her body. "Can we....ride your bike?"

Elijah
He grins, and that is an expression that comes easily. That is an expression that promises all sorts of delightful, terrible things. That is an expression that has been places, reads people, pushes buttons and knows precisely where it would take him. That is the trouble with golden haired boys. That is the trouble with those gregarious, social sorts. The kind that thrive on people and hum in the heart of the party (but stand alone in the room, an interesting dichotomy, that) .
He stood, leaving some cash on the table but also? Offering her his helmet with that damnable grin of his. The one that's the constant companion. The one that makes promises he seems fully intent on keeping.

Except you already did," she says.

"Oh damn, oops," he nodded, "you're gonna have to hold on, but I don't mind taking you for a ride."